Sometimes, you have to be direct... (for
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Jul. 28th, 2013 11:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
"I don't know this writing." She murmured the words softly while pushing a few books around on the table. The narrowed and arched looks of three sets of eyes completely washing over her like they weren't even there. Instead, she pointed to a photo she'd taken of the writing from the rooftop where Lilith had tried to resurrect Sebastian. "How do I not know this writing? I've studied all the forms of the Gehenna languages..."
"Magna Bane-Lightwood, if you do not sit down, I will burn all of your books and pour the ashes in the dead sea." Catarina growled softly as she tried to pace the smaller woman with a different attempts to figure out why she couldn't change. They all knew why... but Magna wanted to be sure. Had to be sure. Jace was gone... Alec didn't need...
"Can't this wait, Catarina?" Sighing in exasperation, she turned and leaned back against the table. She felt sick. Ungodly sick. Like everything she'd eaten on her trip with Alec would magically find away to escape. The sickness left her pale and even shaking as Catarina's hand pressed against her forehead.
"No." The blue skinned healer glared at her in a way only a motherly healer could and it quelled her thoughts. If Magna dared to look over her shoulder, she knew that she'd find two sets of feline eyes glaring at her. "You need to put this nonsense away and let me check you over..."
"But... Alec needs..."
"Alec doesn't know what he needs! You know why?" The healer glared her down and didn't have to finish it as Lex scowled and finished for her, "Because you haven't told him!"
"I told him..." Magnus wilted against the table and gave in. Sitting on the edge, Catarina worked her magic grumbling the while time about how Magnus Bane didn't know the meaning of communicating. "He has more important things to worry about..." Keeping her voice soft, she felt a pain in her chest and stomach that nearly made her want to retch right then.
"You know that's not true..." Mal's soft voice permeated the air and Magnus flinched. "If you just told him clearly, you'd realize that. Even if he is a new person, you know as well as we do that he loves you. This isn't something you can dance around."
Rubbing at her face, she finally pressed her hands over it and made a soft sound. When she lifted her head, she waved them away. "Go. I'm tired. We all know this is pointless. We all know why I can't change. So just go home. I need to think." The kittens started to complain and she cut them sharp looks. "You two. Out. I love you, but you're suffocating me. I'll see you in the morning." Both of them glared only a moment before they gave in. One at a time they said goodbye, Mal with a kiss to her forehead and Lex with a hug. After one last lingering look, they were gone. "I know what those looks mean... they are chastising me for not saying it to him plainly."
"Magnus..." Feline eyes rose to Catarina's and she tried to grin only to sigh at the hard look. "Leave all of this where it lay... clean up... lay down. If he doesn't come back here tonight, you call him. The longer you put this off... the worse of a mess you'll make. Are we clear?"
One hand tangled messily in her hair as her eyes closed. Ducking her head, she made a low whimpering sound as her stomach turned. Finally... all she could do was nod.
"Magna Bane-Lightwood, if you do not sit down, I will burn all of your books and pour the ashes in the dead sea." Catarina growled softly as she tried to pace the smaller woman with a different attempts to figure out why she couldn't change. They all knew why... but Magna wanted to be sure. Had to be sure. Jace was gone... Alec didn't need...
"Can't this wait, Catarina?" Sighing in exasperation, she turned and leaned back against the table. She felt sick. Ungodly sick. Like everything she'd eaten on her trip with Alec would magically find away to escape. The sickness left her pale and even shaking as Catarina's hand pressed against her forehead.
"No." The blue skinned healer glared at her in a way only a motherly healer could and it quelled her thoughts. If Magna dared to look over her shoulder, she knew that she'd find two sets of feline eyes glaring at her. "You need to put this nonsense away and let me check you over..."
"But... Alec needs..."
"Alec doesn't know what he needs! You know why?" The healer glared her down and didn't have to finish it as Lex scowled and finished for her, "Because you haven't told him!"
"I told him..." Magnus wilted against the table and gave in. Sitting on the edge, Catarina worked her magic grumbling the while time about how Magnus Bane didn't know the meaning of communicating. "He has more important things to worry about..." Keeping her voice soft, she felt a pain in her chest and stomach that nearly made her want to retch right then.
"You know that's not true..." Mal's soft voice permeated the air and Magnus flinched. "If you just told him clearly, you'd realize that. Even if he is a new person, you know as well as we do that he loves you. This isn't something you can dance around."
Rubbing at her face, she finally pressed her hands over it and made a soft sound. When she lifted her head, she waved them away. "Go. I'm tired. We all know this is pointless. We all know why I can't change. So just go home. I need to think." The kittens started to complain and she cut them sharp looks. "You two. Out. I love you, but you're suffocating me. I'll see you in the morning." Both of them glared only a moment before they gave in. One at a time they said goodbye, Mal with a kiss to her forehead and Lex with a hug. After one last lingering look, they were gone. "I know what those looks mean... they are chastising me for not saying it to him plainly."
"Magnus..." Feline eyes rose to Catarina's and she tried to grin only to sigh at the hard look. "Leave all of this where it lay... clean up... lay down. If he doesn't come back here tonight, you call him. The longer you put this off... the worse of a mess you'll make. Are we clear?"
One hand tangled messily in her hair as her eyes closed. Ducking her head, she made a low whimpering sound as her stomach turned. Finally... all she could do was nod.
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Date: 2013-07-30 02:29 am (UTC)But even that purr and the accompanying kiss couldn't lessen his shock. It made sense in a way. It was new physically, even if their souls were the same so he'd never thought it was possible. Until now and everything clicked into place.
This was why Mal and Lex had looked at him so expectantly when Magnus had announced that she couldn't change. They were going to have a baby...
"I..." Shock turned to elation as he slipped his hand over Magna's. "Yes I'm happy. More than happy." Grinning at his love, he gave her an adoring kiss. "Why wouldn't I be happy? We're having another kitten."
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Date: 2013-07-30 02:53 am (UTC)"We are.. I... I asked Catarina to confirm it. We're definitely pregnant." She fidgeted a little even though she knew Alec was happy. "It doesn't mean I'll be useless. I can still help... you'll let me won't you? I... I know this is hard on you."
Gently curling her hand about his, she lifted it to kiss his palm lovingly. "I love you, Alec... I promised you new memories... This... this will be more than even that. I know its early... but..." If it didn't happen then, they may never have had the chance to have their own.
Smiling sweetly, she drew his hand down to her stomach again. "This is ours... yours and mine..."
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Date: 2013-07-30 03:24 am (UTC)"We're pregnant." It was probably silly to keep repeating it, but each time he said made it more real to him. "We're going to have kittens." He loved Lex and Mal as if he had raised them in this life, but to have another chance at something that was impossible.
Which meant that they couldn't take risks like they normally could. Frowning slightly, he gently cupped her cheek, eyes shadowed with worry as he remembered what Magna had told him of his first death. It could have just as easily been Magnus who had died instead of Alec.
"I'll let you help, Magna, but... Will you stay out of the battles?" He couldn't demand that she stay behind. That would hurt her and might make her more determined to help than she already was. "I don't want to risk losing you and our kitten. Especially now."
It probably wasn't fair to ask her that after she'd lost him a century ago, but it was more than just Magna's life that was now at risk. Hopefully, she'd agree without becoming angry with him.
"I want these memories, Magnus. I want us to be a family... all of us together." Unconsciously, his hand drifted to her stomach as he gave her a shy smile. "Another miracle that we didn't think we'd have."
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Date: 2013-07-30 09:56 pm (UTC)Her mind came back into focus as he told her to stay out of the battles. Brow furrowing, she ducked her head. Hand gently curled about his as the idea of being useless now hit. She understood. She didn't want to risk their child. Lowering her forehead against his shoulder she sighed heavily.
It hurt. More than she expected it to. Closing her eyes tightly, she tucked her head down further into him. "Alec... I know... I know I can't risk it, but I can't let you get hurt either. I can't lose you again. So I have to sit back again? And worry about losing you?" Letting out a slow sigh, she shook her head.
"I'll be as careful as I can." But the idea of not being there to keep him safe... it ate her up on the inside. Steadying the fear, she tipped her head back up finally and nuzzled into his neck. Closing her eyes, she pressed a kiss to his pulse. "You are the center of our family. I love you... and even if it kills me... I'll try my best to do as you ask."
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Date: 2013-07-31 02:19 am (UTC)He'd given his life to protect his children and now he was afraid he'd lose his new family because Magnus was afraid he might be killed. Brushing his fingers through her hair, he knew the promise was probably the best he could expect. "Magna, I..."
Even that kiss wasn't enough to ease the fear that was wrapping around his heart. "I love you too. Please be careful. I don't want to lose either one of you."
Sighing, he wondered if they could leave even if Izzy needed him and Jace was missing. Maybe if they were far enough away, Magnus would be safe. His family would be angry at first, but if he told them why he they couldn't be an active part of the search, they'd understand. "We could... leave for awhile. After the Clave's done interviewing me, they won't need me anymore."
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Date: 2013-07-31 02:39 am (UTC)"I'm sorry, Alec... I'm just afraid of losing you again. I know I shouldn't feel that way. I promise I'll do everything I can to keep our child safe." Which broke her heart to make. Because that mean she have to run if saving Alec risked her child. "I won't lose any part of us..."
The thought of him running from those he loved made her feel empty inside... She instantly shook her head and looked up at him. "We won't abandon your family. They are just as much mine. I will never make you choose between me and them. I will behave. I promise."
Just thinking of him regretting giving her something so precious made her more determined not to let it happen. "Alec... we'll work this out together... Please, love?"
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Date: 2013-07-31 03:02 am (UTC)But how careful could any of them be with Sebastian out there? He'd almost killed Max and he'd kidnapped Jace, what would he do to someone like Magna or the kittens?
"I'm not choosing between them and you." Or he'd try not to think of it that way. "I'm protecting you and our kitten." Meeting her eyes, he told himself that Izzy would forgive him. Clary probably wouldn't but Jace would understand. He'd do the same for Clary if they were going to have a child. "They'd understand eventually."
He didn't like the idea but if that was what they needed to do... "We will, but consider it at least? I don't want Sebastian to have a chance to hurt you."
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Date: 2013-07-31 03:32 am (UTC)"Alec..." Sliding her hands up she cupped his face and kissed his chin. Next she kissed his jaw then just behind his ear. "Alexander..." She nipped the shell of his ear and then nuzzled into his hair. Soon she had to lower back down as her feet protested standing too long on her toes.
"I love you. I love you and I will stay by your side no matter what path you follow. I will kill you and our child safe. I know you'll keep us safe. But this fight... it's beyond us. I... i have a feeling, Alec... my dreams are terrifying." They'd been getting terrifying till he started to sleep with her again. "I won't make you leave your parabatai but I want us to exercise extreme caution. Please?"
Magna knew how dangerous Sebastian could be. She remembered the look he gave her on the few occasions they 'met'. If he knew why she was so important or different... what would he do to her and her children? It scared her more than she wanted to admit.
Pulling on him gently, she smiled at him in exhaustion and feeling whole having him in her arms. "I want to lay down... can we lay down? We can keep talking in bed..."
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Date: 2013-07-31 03:51 am (UTC)His hands smoothed along her back as she kissed him, shivering at the feeling of teeth against his ear. "Magna... I love you too." Pulling her closer, he buried his face in her hair, hating that her dreams confirmed what he wanted to believe was just senseless worry. "We'll face whatever you dreamed of together. We'll be careful."
Pulling away slightly, he looked into her eyes, his expression determined. "I won't let him hurt my family. I'm not losing any of you."
Noticing how tired she looked, he pushed aside thoughts of Sebastian to focus on his love. "We can. You need to rest or Catarina will chase after us both." Before she could protest, he swept Magnus up into his arms, settling her against his chest before kissing her jaw. "Maybe we should talk about happier things now that we've promised to be careful?"
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Date: 2013-07-31 04:23 am (UTC)Beaming up at him as he pulled away, she smoothed her fingertips over his cheek. "I know you won't. And we'll take care of you as well. That's what family is, Alec..."
"She can be very intimidating. I agree--!" A surprised sound left her as he picked her up. Wrapping her arms about his neck she gasped and pressed her face into his neck. Laughing so that softly, she hugged him tighter. "My knight in shining leather..."
Purring a little louder at the kisses and attention she nodded. "Like names... we should think about one for a boy and one for a girl just in case." Nuzzling his jaw, she sighed a happy sigh. "God, I love you..."
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Date: 2013-07-31 04:47 am (UTC)Magnus probably would still protest but the thought would comfort him. If things became too dangerous, then they would protect their kitten no matter what the others might think.
But for now, they'd plan for a new member of their family. His happiness turned to mischief as she made that sound and he nuzzled her neck. "My gear has never been shiny." Nothing he'd ever owned had been shiny unless Magnus had gotten hold of it. "I love you so much."
Carrying her to the bedroom, he gently eased her onto the mattress before stretching out beside her. Instinctively, his hand settled on her stomach, an awed grin brightening his features. "I never thought we'd have to think of names again."
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Date: 2013-07-31 05:02 am (UTC)Giggling softly, she tipped her head to let Alec have access to her neck. "Mm.. maybe not... But I can pretend for a foolish girly fantasy that it's shiny." Grinning at him, she brushed the hair back from his face. "Doesn't matter as long as you're mine."
Releasing him slowly as she was placed on the bed, she waited till he joined her before settling into him. Running her fingertips over his hand on her stomach, the purr deepened in happiness. "Well.. not just names... if you want to convert a room here... if you want to move..." Pulling him closer, she kissed him again softly. "Think about it... might be nice to move out of the city when our kitten is born."
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Date: 2013-08-01 02:26 am (UTC)Nipping lightly at her pulse, he smiled against her neck. "If you want me in shining armor, we could probably figure something out. There's probably a set somewhere in the Institute." Or knowing Magnus' fashion sense, there might be a set hidden away in her apartment somewhere. Returning that smile, he brushed his lips against her cheek. "I'll always be yours. You know that."
Tangling his fingers with hers, Alec lifted her hand up to kiss her knuckles before returning their hands to her stomach. "Did we have problems coming up with names before? I don't remember." Humming softly as he returned the kiss, he snuggled closer, curling around his love. "Where would we move to? I haven't been anywhere except New York and Idris."
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Date: 2013-08-01 03:29 am (UTC)Chuckling softly, she threaded her fingers into his hair and purred happily. Twining her fingers in his hair, she made a happy sound. Turning her head just a little into the brush of lips, she made a happy little sound. "Mm.. And I will be yours forever."
Watching him kiss her knuckles she couldn't help the sweet smile that pulled at her lips. "I think you ended up bowing to most of my whims. I think I was over excited. I really want you to help me this time..." Leaning in closer, she nuzzled their noses together. "Even upstate New York would be pretty... Where ever you are is home to me, darling... you know this right?"
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Date: 2013-08-01 03:41 am (UTC)Laughing softly, he imagined how he must have acted the first time they'd been pregnant. At least this time he knew it was possible. Then he'd probably would've been so dazed and ecstatic that he would have agreed to anything that would make Magnus happy. "I don't mind letting you choose, but I'll help since you want me to. Do you want names that remind us of the past or something new?"
Both ideas had merit. This was a new start for them in most ways, but the past was important... especially since Alec was caught both in the past and in the present.
Tipping his head, he kissed the end of her nose. "I know, Magna. My home is with my family. Even if we move away from the city, I know you'll let me portal to see Iz and Jace." His parents probably wouldn't want to see him after they realized their hopes for grandchildren wouldn't happen the way they expected. "Do you want to stay in New York? I thought maybe you'd want to go back to London."
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Date: 2013-08-01 04:06 am (UTC)"I do want your help. I just... want a part of your name in at least one of their names." Smiling at that, she cupped his face and closed her eyes a moment. Touching their foreheads, she tugged him closer to gently kiss him. "I like giving them a part of who you are..."
A light giggle left as he kissed her nose. "Mm... Exactly. Want to have a home that's be ours. Not just my loft. Know what I mean?" Hugging him tight she whispered in his ear. "I could live in London. Alec... I want to go where you want to be. That's important to me..." She didn't want to pick a place and he'd be all upset. That wasn't what she wanted.
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Date: 2013-08-01 04:28 am (UTC)The thought hadn't occurred to him. He'd been so excited over the thought that they were going to have a child, then worried about protecting Magna that he hadn't considered that they could have twins again. "Twins?"
Snuggling closer, he nuzzled at her hair, grinning softly at the thought of them having a new life together. "I'm not sure where I want to be. I don't want to stay in New York." It was home, but he was afraid of what might happen if they stayed close to the Institute since trouble seemed to be drawn to the place. "But I'd like to have a place like we had before. Somewhere that we're both happy."
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Date: 2013-08-01 04:44 am (UTC)She gave Alec a hopeful smile before Slipping her arms about his neck. Drawing him close, she kissed his lips softly. "Would you be happy if we had twins? More the merrier?"
Purring lowly as he nuzzled at her hair, she gave a sigh and closed her eyes. His warmth made her feel safe and secure no matter how the world may be falling down around them. "I'm glad... I just want to get away... what about the Pacific Coast? It might be fun." Tracing her fingertips softly over his chest, her smile grew. "I kind of want to get away from the city scene for a while."
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Date: 2013-08-01 05:47 am (UTC)Returning that kiss, he began to blush slightly, realizing that Magnus might not be as pleased by the thought since she would be the one carrying them. "I'd be happy with twins, but would you be? I remember it was hard on you the first time."
Which was another reason for him to be protective and to dote on her more than he usually wanted to.
The soft sound of Magnus' purring caused him to relax as he gently rubbed her stomach, amazed that there would be another kitten or kittens in their family. "I want to get away too and get a fresh start. I can get over my dislike of umbrellas if it means finding somewhere quiet."
Pausing, he thought of how their adult kittens might react to the news of them moving away. "We should probably ask Mal and Lex where they'd like to live since they'll probably want to follow us so they can help with their new sibling. Or siblings."
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Date: 2013-08-01 01:38 pm (UTC)"I have a feeling..." A soft chuckle rose from her chest. "I'd be just as sick for one as I would be for two. I promise you that. I've already been really sick..." Not that she showed him, but that proved the truth. "And I'll make it through all the morning sickness and sickness in general just like I did before."
Laughter hit at the thought of him hating umbrellas and she couldn't help hugging him tighter. "It's okay... I've always wanted to kiss you in the rain." Winking up at him, she nuzzled his cheek and neck.
"You are right... they will want to come. They've followed me all these years without fail. I never asked them to, but they always did." Nesting into his chest, she let out a happy sound. "I like the idea... a big family."
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Date: 2013-08-01 02:29 pm (UTC)He had no doubts that their child - or children - would be warlocks like the kittens. Not that he minded the idea. He'd managed to help with Mal and Lex even without magic to make things easier.
Kissing along her jaw, he couldn't help feeling guilty at how sick she'd be at first. "I remember the first time we were pregnant you told me that our kittens hated you." Since the memory was so vivid, Alec had the feeling it was something Magnus had said regularly. "Is there anything that makes it easier?"
Flushing slightly, he cuddled her close, embarrassed by the irrational fear that Izzy had delighted in teasing him over. "Then I'll make sure to kiss you the next time it's raining. I just wish I knew why umbrellas freak me out."
Wrapping his arms around her, he kissed the top of her head before beginning to rub her back. "I'm glad they followed you since they're the ones who figured things out. I'm sure they won't care where we move, but they do have their own lives so we should be sure... or set up a portal so they can visit whenever they want."
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Date: 2013-08-01 11:41 pm (UTC)Shaking her head in amusement, she softly trailed her fingers over his hands and arms. Tracing around his fingertips and down his wrist, she hummed a low sound. “It always feels better when you’re close. When you hold me… It doesn’t make me completely better… But it’s more than enough. I’ll try not to be too clingy, but I won’t be able to help it too much.”
Bending down at the promise to kiss her in the rain, she first kissed the tip of his nose then brushed their lips. “I want that. Possibly someday more than that… it’s always fun to try fun exciting things.” Her eyes glinted in amusement as she gave him an eskimo kiss. “I believe in keeping life exciting. And a little kinky. I’m sure those memories will pop up as we go along.”
Sending him a wink, she settled down, curling onto her side while pressing into his. “I really have no idea why that started up. You likely got hit by one or something.” Smiling a little, her eyes closed as she cuddled into his arms. “I’m sure they will… And establishing a portal would work.”
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Date: 2013-08-02 02:53 am (UTC)"Being smothered in love counts as being outnumbered." Letting out an exaggerated sigh, he gently rubbed her stomach, eyes bright with happiness. "And everyone in the house will probably have magic except me."
His mock annoyance turned to curiosity as Magnus trailed her fingers along his arms. "Touching me really makes it better?" Even as he asked that question, there was a hint lingering at the back of his mind. "It's always been that way? Your nightmares and headaches used to get better if I was holding you? If it makes you feel better, then cling as much as you want. I want to have you close."
Eyes crossing slightly when Magnus kissed his nose, he gently nipped her lips as she pulled away. "Life is always exciting with you, Magna. Even without those memories, I know that's true. If you want more than just kissing in the rain, we can find a way to make it happen."
Wrapping an arm around his love, Alec curled around her so they were as close a possible. "Or maybe I've been traumatized by Izzy's weird umbrellas." Kissing her neck, he pressed his cheek to her hair. "Would we be able to keep them from visiting at embarrassing times?"
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Date: 2013-08-02 03:24 am (UTC)Chuckling quietly she arched a brow. "Love... magic... Even if the kittens had normal eyes and didn't use magic... they'd still smother you. You know that Mal refused to learn magic for you. He wanted to be your legacy." And she wouldn't admit to him that the decision was likely why he didn't get the soul bond with the woman that Mal loved. Alec didn't need to know that unless Mal decided to share it. "Your magic... is the magic that bonds us together. How you make me feel better and keep the fire at my core calm..."
Nuzzling her head under his chin, she purred soft and happy. Letting her fingers gently brushed his neck, she pressed into him seeking the warmth and soothing magic he held over her. "You don't mind then? If I stay close? I don't want to come off as overly clingy..."
Tilting her head at him, a curl to one side of her lip gave away the smirking amusement. "I make life exciting..? Do you like it? When I make your life different and exciting?"
Melting into his arms, she made a happy sound and clung to him. "I'll save you from the umbrella menaces." Then her breath hitched at the kiss to her neck. "Mm... I would move mountains to have my time with you."
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Date: 2013-08-02 03:41 am (UTC)Sighing softly at the idea of Mal wanting to follow in his footsteps, he couldn't help regretting how he'd treated his son before he'd understood his other life. "I never meant to hurt him when I didn't remember my past." Alec was sure Mal would forgive him but he still felt guilty for it. "Even if he'd learned magic, he still would have been my legacy. Magic wouldn't make him less a part of me."
Eventually, Alec would explain that to Mal since Max seemed determined that his new hero learn magic. Either convince him or hint that he shouldn't disappoint Max by not learning more about being a warlock. "Then we'll all have our own type of magic, even if our kittens are more nephilim than warlock."
Kissing her again, he lightly nuzzled her ear. "Why would I mind having my wife close? I love you, Magnus. I want to be near you as much as possible. I want a long, exciting life with you."
Forever maybe... if that was possible. "Especially if you're willing to protect me from umbrellas and we can have time alone together."
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