Sometimes, you have to be direct... (for alec_lightwood)

[magna_bane]

"I don't know this writing." She murmured the words softly while pushing a few books around on the table. The narrowed and arched looks of three sets of eyes completely washing over her like they weren't even there. Instead, she pointed to a photo she'd taken of the writing from the rooftop where Lilith had tried to resurrect Sebastian. "How do I not know this writing? I've studied all the forms of the Gehenna languages..."

"Magna Bane-Lightwood, if you do not sit down, I will burn all of your books and pour the ashes in the dead sea." Catarina growled softly as she tried to pace the smaller woman with a different attempts to figure out why she couldn't change. They all knew why... but Magna wanted to be sure. Had to be sure. Jace was gone... Alec didn't need...

"Can't this wait, Catarina?" Sighing in exasperation, she turned and leaned back against the table. She felt sick. Ungodly sick. Like everything she'd eaten on her trip with Alec would magically find away to escape. The sickness left her pale and even shaking as Catarina's hand pressed against her forehead.

"No." The blue skinned healer glared at her in a way only a motherly healer could and it quelled her thoughts. If Magna dared to look over her shoulder, she knew that she'd find two sets of feline eyes glaring at her. "You need to put this nonsense away and let me check you over..."

"But... Alec needs..."

"Alec doesn't know what he needs! You know why?" The healer glared her down and didn't have to finish it as Lex scowled and finished for her, "Because you haven't told him!"

"I told him..." Magnus wilted against the table and gave in. Sitting on the edge, Catarina worked her magic grumbling the while time about how Magnus Bane didn't know the meaning of communicating. "He has more important things to worry about..." Keeping her voice soft, she felt a pain in her chest and stomach that nearly made her want to retch right then.

"You know that's not true..." Mal's soft voice permeated the air and Magnus flinched. "If you just told him clearly, you'd realize that. Even if he is a new person, you know as well as we do that he loves you. This isn't something you can dance around."

Rubbing at her face, she finally pressed her hands over it and made a soft sound. When she lifted her head, she waved them away. "Go. I'm tired. We all know this is pointless. We all know why I can't change. So just go home. I need to think." The kittens started to complain and she cut them sharp looks. "You two. Out. I love you, but you're suffocating me. I'll see you in the morning." Both of them glared only a moment before they gave in. One at a time they said goodbye, Mal with a kiss to her forehead and Lex with a hug. After one last lingering look, they were gone. "I know what those looks mean... they are chastising me for not saying it to him plainly."

"Magnus..." Feline eyes rose to Catarina's and she tried to grin only to sigh at the hard look. "Leave all of this where it lay... clean up... lay down. If he doesn't come back here tonight, you call him. The longer you put this off... the worse of a mess you'll make. Are we clear?"

One hand tangled messily in her hair as her eyes closed. Ducking her head, she made a low whimpering sound as her stomach turned. Finally... all she could do was nod.

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[alec_lightwood]

"We'll have time to see it happen, Magna." It was something he needed to believe. Someday his family would be accepted for what they were instead of being ignored because they were warlocks. And he'd live long enough to see it and maybe longer than that if Magnus was right about sharing immortality.

Laughing softly, he kissed the end of her nose, blushing slightly as Magnus teased him. "There's nothing wrong with my sanity. I wanted to kiss you before we went into battle and I don't care what anyone thinks." Not even his parents who had probably been struck dumb by the sight of him kissing a male warlock. "The only fetish I have is for you."

As she told him about the last time they had had kittens, he blinked at her slowly. "I love you. I didn't know... The memories are still fuzzy." Nuzzling her ear, he nipped gently before pressing a kiss to the sensitive spot beneath. "Things happen when they're supposed to. We're proving that every day. If you promise to be careful, I'll trust you. I can't lose both of you... or all three of yous."

Meeting her gaze, nervous butterflies caught in his chest as she spoke those strangely familiar words. "And I was made to love you in every lifetime, Magnus. I'll always be yours." Grinning softly at her, he slid his hand beneath her shirt, tracing the pattern of the love rune along her back. "What I want means you have to take off your clothes. I want you naked for me."

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"We'd better." Giving him her best admonishing 'mom' look, she rose up just a little so she could touch their lips in a sweet kiss. "Because that's something we need to see together. It means everything to both of us." Brushing his hair back, she smiled against his lips. Hopefully this time... they could share immortality together and not be ripped apart.

"Oh.. I know you're sane. Or some semblance of it." Scrunching her nose cutely as he kissed it, she smiled finally and lifted a brow. "But I do think you are a masochist. You know, we could have exploited that in less grandiose ways." Smirking just a little, she knew she'd be terrible with sado-masochistic behavior in bed. He really was too precious to her to have anything like that between them. Didn't mean she couldn't tease him. "I'm a good fetish by the way. I pride myself in that." Which only served to make her grin widely.

"I know. I didn't expect you to. But you couldn't argue much then since Charlotte was pregnant as well." Giving him her best innocent smile, she stopped only to purr as he nuzzled and nipped. Gasping softly, she tangled her fingers in his hair and tipped her head back for him. "Mm...I will... I have so much to protect right now." So much to live for that she didn't want to lose. Not this time.

Her back arched the instant he traced that rune there. Half closed eyes allowed a glimmer of gold through the lashes as she purred lowly. "I'm always yours." Gripping his shoulder, she lifted up enough to reach down and pull her shirt off slowly, tossing it aside, she smiled coyly at him while unhooking the bra. "You could help. Unless you're determined to watch."

[alec_lightwood]

The 'mom' look didn't work on him the way it would effect the kittens. Instead it made him smile, knowing that his love was right. They needed to see things change between nephilim and Downworlders and maybe the kiss they had shared in front of the Clave would be a step in the right direction.

Not that Alec had been thinking about things like that when he'd pulled Magnus in for a kiss. All he'd thought about was showing his soul mate how much he cared about her. The fact that she looked like a male warlock didn't matter since he loved them both equally. "We'll see it someday. So will our kittens."

Kissing her softly, he gently nibbled on her bottom lip. "I'm not a masochist unless you count dealing with Herondales as masochism. I'm in love and wanted to be sure you knew how I felt." Pulling away, he smiled, his expression reflecting the joy he felt at knowing they were getting a second chance at a family. "You're good in every way I can think of.

"I'm not going to argue. I trust you." He did even if he knew that she sometimes did crazy things to protect him. She might take risks for herself but she knew what it'd do to them both if anything happened to their new family. His hand slid from her back to rest against her stomach, rubbing lightly as he smiled at his love. "I know how you can get when you think our kittens need defending.

"I plan on helping and watching." Catching the shirt - one that Alec was sure had been his at one time - he helped Magnus pull it off before tracing his fingers over her bra, smiling almost nervously as he met her gaze. "Are there certain things that make you feel better?"

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At his lack of reaction, she suddenly laughed. "It's not very intimidating is it? How in the world did I raise a set of twins that turned out so well when I couldn't scare a fly?" She knew she could be intimidating. She knew that Alec had no reason to be intimidated by her... but she still had to wonder. How did she raise two beautiful children?

"I hope you're right, Alec. I hope..." Leaning in closer, she kissed his lips softly. Licking and nipping at his lips, she reached up to cup his face and slowly trace his face. Humming against them, she finally pulled back and lowered her hands down to his chest. "I love you. You make the world easier to swallow after being disillusioned for so long." It felt a little like being reborn and starting over.

Returning his kiss, she smiled with a purr for the nibbling. "I don't know, darling... I'm thinking that's intensely masochistic. You found your own Herondale in this life. Like you missed Will or something. And I hate to say it.. he's worse than Will. Sorry, love." Laughing, she moved in to kiss him again licking at his lips. "You make me a better person, Alexander..."

Laughing softly at that, she nodded firmly. "Good. Cause I won't back down till you agree. You made my life easier." Winking at him, she suddenly shivered at the rubbing of her stomach. Closing her eyes slowly, she purred deeper and happier as he touched her. "Alec... You're just as bad if not worse with that one. So I don't feel bad."

Huffing a laugh at the answer to 'helping or watching' she opened her eyes and arched a brow at him. Slipping her fingers over his, she hooked his fingers into the bra straps and guided them to peel it away. Not finishing, she lowered her hands down her stomach to the worn jeans almost hanging off her hips. Slowly opening the fly, she hummed a soft sound. "Nothing specific... just that being held and touched by you has always been calming."

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"To other people it is." But not to Alec. Not even when her magic was new and they'd both been afraid of what it might mean, he hadn't been intimidated. The only time he could recall feeling any type of negative emotions toward her was a vague memory that he assumed was of seeing her male form for the first time and not realizing who she was. "And you have other ways of keeping people in line."

Returning that kiss, he knew Magnus must have when through more heartbreak than he could imagine. Losing the person she loved and then having the Shadowhunters turn their backs on her and the kittens when they should have been welcomed as his family... He wasn't going to let it happen again. At least not with his siblings. There would be some nephilim who thought of them as kin. "I love you too. I want to break all those disillusions, Magna. I want to show you how I see you."

Chuckling softly at the comments about Jace, he let out an exaggerated sigh. "Someone has to keep him in line. He's not that bad. You just haven't seen him at his best." Hopefully, she'd get a chance to when they found Jace and things settled down. "You've always made me a better person. I probably would be spending lifetimes hiding in shadows if I didn't meet you."

Nuzzling her ear, he smiled when her purr deepened, letting his fingers brush against smooth skin as he helped slipping her bra down. Kissing at her neck, he tossed it near her shirt, he slid his hands along her sides, pulling away when he reached the waistband of her jeans. Grinning softly at his love, he began easing the denim away from her hips. "I'm not really thinking about doing 'calming' things with you."

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Tipping her head a little, dark hair slid into her face. Lashes lowered too keep the shorter strands out of her eyes. "You know it's strange... that I don't even know what I want people to think. I suppose there is a time and a place for everything. But I know I never want you to be afraid or intimidated by me." And where she wanted the kid's respect... she didn't want fear. But with those that wanted to hurt her children or Alec...

Part of her wanted to just wrap him up in her arms for that answer. But instead she just smiled and pressed another kiss to his lips. "I know you can. Only you... Because I only learned to care about myself after seeing your love for me..." She'd learned fast that she deserved his love... or they never would have worked out. "I know... that I was born for you." And she'd be all she could be for him.

"Hm... I suppose we'll have to see. We'll get him back, Alec..." She cupped his face and simply smiled. Normally she was anything but an optimist, but she knew they would look everywhere and leave no stone unturn for his parabatai. "When we are together..." She found his hand and slid her fingers through his to press them palm to palm. Focusing on that bond between them, her smile brightened as the blue-white light poured from between their palms. "We are brightest... whole."

The light faded as her mind refocused on his touch. A low gasp disrupted the purring only a moment before it rumbled on. "Mm... I don't want to calm down right now." Her breathing hitched with the kisses to her neck and her hands only moved to the bed when he started to pull the jeans down. Lifting her hips, she let him push them down before setting back on the bed. He'd realize about that moment... she wasn't wearing anything under those jeans. "What are you thinking about doing?"

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Brushing her hair away from her face, Alec gently kissed her forehead. "There is, Magnus. And I've never been afraid of you, not even when we didn't understand your magic. I never will be afraid of you."

He might not have her powers except the echos of magic that he sometimes could use because of the bond, but he'd never been frightened or intimidated. Magnus was his love, his dearest friend. There would never be a reason for him to think less of her.

Smiling wryly, he pulled away enough to look into her eyes. "I think I've proven that I was born for you. I know we'll find him. And we'll protect our family" But he didn't want to think of what they had lost in the past or about his missing parabatai. They should be celebrating instead of lingering on the past.

His smile brightened with wonder as magic seemed to focus between their palms. They had probably done this dozens of times, but it always amazed Alec when he realized that he had magic of some sort. "You make me whole. You always will."

Pausing momentarily from those kisses when her purring momentarily stopped, he nibbled lightly at her neck when the familiar sound resumed.

Slowly, he pulled down the faded denim, groaning lowly when he realized she was naked underneath her jeans. When they had joined the rest of her clothes, Alec pressed a kiss to her ankle before looking up the length of her body to meet her golden eyes. "I'm thinking of tasting you."

His gaze didn't waver even as he flushed faintly, wondering if he'd ever be able to say things like that without blushing. "If you'd like me to."

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"I know..." That sturdy knowledge in the fact that Alec never shied and never flinched away kept her going. That no matter what she turned into, he stayed at her side. The night he kept their engagement going even after her eyes had turned... she never doubted him again.

"You have." Smiling more, she nodded once to his declaration about Jace and let it go. They needed a happy moment. Not to fret more about something they couldn't change right this instant. Reaching out, she traced her fingertips down his face and neck before lightly pulling on his shirt. "You know... this should be off too."

Which made her giggle through the purring as he went after her neck again. Arching into him, her body curved perfectly to fit into him and give him that access to the sensitive skin of her neck. Closing her eyes, she shivered. "Love you... your touch... your kisses..."

She squirmed when he moved down. Just a little bit. The decent down her body was amazing even if she missed being pressed close. Dazed and dilated eyes rose to him and she gasped as he kissed her ankle. Then she dropped her head back and moaned at the declaration of intent. "God, yes. I want that."

The first time had stunned her with nervousness and uncertainty... only to end in pure bliss. It never ceased to drive her insane when he wanted to do this. "Alec..." Drawing his name out, she slowly slid her legs apart in offering.

Meeting his gaze again, she knew her own face was flush. "Have me, Alexander... however you want me."

[alec_lightwood]

He belonged to Magnus completely. It was something Alec had known in his first lifetime and something he'd learn over the past few weeks during his second. They belonged together and they needed time together without fearing what the future might hold.

Brushing his lips against her fingers when she touched his face, he grinned as she tugged at his shirt. "Soon." After he'd left a mark on her neck. Sucking and nipping at a spot that he knew would probably show unless she wore something with a high collar, he smiled against her neck when she laughed.

Her reaction to his touch and his words made him want to please her even more. Seeing the dazed look in her eyes caused two memories to melt together... he'd been incredibly nervous the first times he'd done this, afraid he'd do something that would shock Magnus or that he'd disappoint her in some way. "I love touching you. Love tasting you."

His eyes darkened with need as he heard the desire in her voice, swallowing hard when he offered to let him do whatever he wished. She was beautiful in every way he could think of and she wanted him...

Pulling off his shirt, he ignored how his hands shook slightly as if this was their first time as he stripped off the rest of his clothes. Slowly, he slid his hands along her legs, tracing patterns and words over her skin, moving along her calves up to her thighs as he settled between her legs. "This isn't about me tonight. I want to make you happy."

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Shivering at the touch of his lips to her fingers, she half closed her eyes. No memories could replace this. No number of times could dull the feelings. He always left her feeling like their first time if only because she loved him so much. That mark he so diligently put on her neck only served to make her purr deep and loud as eyes fell closed and her head rolled to the side. "Alec..."

The mark would show. Hiding it never even occurred to her. She'd be more than happy to let them all see it and then they'd know she belonged to him and vice versa. It left her shaking with need as her body sank into the mattress. "I love you..." Breathing the words, she squirmed and gasped for air under him.

Goose flesh rippled over her skin when he first touched only to have the muscles quiver in delight under his hands and even when he pulled away. Molten gold stared at him as he pulled his shirt off and then she made a soft moan as he pulled the rest of his clothes off. "You're so gorgeous..."

Then those amazing hands were on her again. Opening up for him, she couldn't stop the slight squirm as her mind reminisced of all the amazing feelings to come. It left her flushed even before he started. It always did. "God help me... if you make me any happier tonight I will burst."

Grinning up at him, a loud purr followed as she shifted to settle long perfectly toned legs about him. "I want you to have fun too, Alexander..."

[alec_lightwood]

"I love you too." Every time they were together felt new but still familiar. He was meant for her, body and soul craving to be near her, the bond strengthening each moment they were together. Old memories and new made each time he touched her more vibrant as he found his place in this new lifetime.

Even with those memories, he was amazed at how Magnus always wanted him. After years of being in shadows, thinking he'd never find the one who was lost to him, he hadn't thought he'd find someone who fit him as perfectly as she did.

Flushing slightly at the compliment, he shook his head at the words. "You're the one who is gorgeous. Every part of you is beautiful. Body, heart, and soul." And she was even more beautiful when the shadows that had lingered in her eyes when they first met disappeared and she was truly happy.

Eyes bright with amusement, Alec nuzzled at her knee, lightly kissing soft skin. "That's not the reaction I'm hoping for." But it still made him smile as her purr became louder. Gently nipping at her thigh as Magnus wrapped her legs around him, he leaned forward to gently kiss first the mark on her pelvis, and then her stomach,. "I will, but I want to focus on you first."