Magnus Bane (
magna_bane) wrote2013-05-27 09:46 pm
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It's perfectly normal for the girl to scale the wall to the window. (for
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The day had been pretty rough. Will found ways to make her work harder when they trained together and it was some strange ritual to make her go away. Sometimes she wasn't sure if he enjoyed her company or if he hated it. He had more mood swings than a woman. Not that she cared. She neither liked him nor hated him. Which was about the same for Jem. The one thing she knew for certain... she liked to keep them safe without either of them noticing. If the didn't notice, they couldn't ask her about it. Things were better that way.
On the other hand, sitting in the attic with a book in her lap that day, she found like so many other days that all she thought about was one person. The first time the smaller branch of the Lightwood family visited the Institute, she'd gone from disinterested in life to a rush of feelings that left her breathless. Will hated the Lightwoods. No matter which family branch... but her entire perception changed the first time his eyes met hers.
Which was why she nimbly scaled the wall up to the dimly lit window of a London apartment. Pulling up onto the window ledge nimbly, she tapped the glass pane softly. It wasn't the first night that she did this. Swinging her feet lightly, she tucked the wayward ebony strands behind an ear and peered down at the city below while waiting.
On the other hand, sitting in the attic with a book in her lap that day, she found like so many other days that all she thought about was one person. The first time the smaller branch of the Lightwood family visited the Institute, she'd gone from disinterested in life to a rush of feelings that left her breathless. Will hated the Lightwoods. No matter which family branch... but her entire perception changed the first time his eyes met hers.
Which was why she nimbly scaled the wall up to the dimly lit window of a London apartment. Pulling up onto the window ledge nimbly, she tapped the glass pane softly. It wasn't the first night that she did this. Swinging her feet lightly, she tucked the wayward ebony strands behind an ear and peered down at the city below while waiting.
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Blinking at the shiver, she held on to him tighter. "Are you cold?" The whisper was so soft, she wasn't sure if she'd said it out loud.
And considering the reply to her hidden truth, she felt like she couldn't breathe. "Alec..." His name came on an exhale before she suddenly moved to wrap her arms completely about his neck and hug him. "Forever with you... I want that." Whether as a lover or just closer than just friends. As long as it was with him.
"You're the only one I want to know me..." Turning her head to lean into his touch, she breathed in slowly. "Something happened when I was a child. I don't... I don't remember. My mother killed herself. I... I really think it was because of me... why else would my father try to kill me?" She frowned and furrowed her brow in mental anguish. "I don't know how it happened... but the house burned down... he died yet I survived. I don't remember how or why... just that the Silent Brothers found me..."
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His eyes closed with a contented sigh as Magnus held him close, her words causing him to hum softly. "No. I'm not cold. Just ticklish."
He'd begun to wonder if they could simply stay together curled up in his chair together for the night when she said his name, causing him to try to pull away until her arms slid around his neck. It took a moment for Alec to realize she'd said yes, and then he began to grin. "Does that mean I can ask Charlotte's permission to court you?"
He might have been trying before asking officially but he wanted to do this right. If he was going to fight his parents over his choice of who to fall in love with, then he needed Charlotte's help. She would protect them as much as she could and give them a refuge away from the gossips.
It was an honor to have her trust him enough to tell him about her past but that couldn't ease the sorrow at knowing she had bee hurt so much in the past. "It had nothing to do with you, Magnus. Sometimes people do things like that and we never know the reason. And there are no reasons other than whatever darkness is in their own minds.
"Grief and sorrow make people do terrible things they wouldn't normally do if they were in their right minds." His hand stilled for a moment as he gently kissed her hair. "I'm glad you survived. I don't know what I'd do if we had never met."
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Only to grin more at the comment about being ticklish. "Darling, Alexander... you're ticklish? Duly noted." Bumping her nose into his jaw, the smile melted into a playful smirk.
Then he asked that question. Sitting up a little, she met his eyes and searched them for how serious he was. Lifting her hands, she cupped his face shyly at first before feeling more confident as she leaned in closer. "You really wish to court me? I want that... if that's really what you want."
The idea ran through her like a thrill of electricity. Alec wanted her. Her. The excitement it sent through her made butterflies explode in her chest and flutter in her stomach. Catching one of his hands, she drew it to her lips and kissed the knuckles softly. "I never thought..." She smiled brilliantly and ducked her head.
Finally she lifted her head to look at him in worry. "Your parents don't like me... I'm of foreign decent... Are you really sure?" God, she hoped he was. Lifting her hand, she smoothed his hair back softly. "Because, I promise you... I will never leave your side and support you for life." Breathing in slowly, she nearly said those words she wanted to say so badly.
And she nearly convinced herself not to, until Alec said those things to her about her parents. The stinging in her eyes got ignored in favor of moving to very softly touch their lips for just a split second. "I love you."
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Happiness wasn't something Lightwoods searched for, but he had found it with Magnus. And he would do everything possible to give that joy to her as well. "I want to make you happy for..." The rest of his life, if she'd agree to it, but he couldn't ask her that. "... for as long as you allow me to."
As he noticed that grin, he realized he would be in trouble later, even if 'ticklish' hadn't been quite the correct description. He couldn't tell her that he liked having her touch him or that the spot was sensitive. "I... Sometimes I am."
But that concern didn't matter since she wanted him to court her. She wanted to be more than friends and eventually he would be able to ask for that lifetime together. "I do want to, Magnus. I've wanted to for awhile but I didn't know how."
Isabelle hadn't helped with that, giving him strange looks whenever he asked how he should court Magnus. He'd never been sure if it was Magnus she disapproved of or him. Izzy loved him and liked Magnus, but the idea of them together seemed to worry her. Maybe because she knew how their parents would react.
Not that it mattered. Alec loved her and he'd lived too long in a house where power was the only thing that mattered. "I don't care if they don't like you. You are my dearest friend and I can't think of anyone else I would wish to..."
He froze as he realized what he'd been about to say, blushing brightly before kissing her unbruised cheek. "I don't care about your lineage, Magnus. It's your heart that matters not who your parents are." Meeting her eyes, he smiled sadly. "If it did, then you might not want me to court you."
That kiss should have readied him for a second, but it still caught him by surprise, lips gentle against hers until she pulled away. Staring at Magnus in shock, grinned at those words. "I love you too, Magnus. I have for a long time."
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Maybe he never would. Yet, she refused to ever ask for more than he would willingly give. "For anyone else, the task of courting me would be arduous at best... for you... it won't take more effort than being yourself. I promise you this. I also promise not to take too much advantage of said 'sensitive' spots." Adding the last part, she tried to lighten the mood. Sadly, it was a good chance the idea would only upset as well.
It showed just how much she loved him. He really was the center of her universe. And from the way he seemed so sure that his parents' opinion would not sway him away from her. "You are my closest and dearest to my heart. My best friend... Alec... there is no one better to fall for... And I know I never will love another in this way."
Shaking her head at the thought of his parents, she moved to touch their foreheads. "Alec... I don't care who your parents are or where you come from. It's you... it's all for you... you're all I want in my life..."
Moving her hands to slide about his face, she slipped her nose against his. "I have loved you in kind... for so very long. May I? Kiss you?" Amber eyes lit up in hope, fingertips softly playing at his hair.
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Smiling in relief that he could court her and she wouldn't make the task too difficult for him, he gently brushed his fingers through her hair like he'd wanted to do so many times. "Then maybe I won't be a failure at courting you like Izzy expects."
If it was anyone else that he was trying to court, he might believe Isabelle, but Magnus had been his friend for years. She knew he valued honesty more than the rest of polite society ever would. Though that wouldn't stop him from teasing her at times. "I appreciate you not using my weaknesses against me since I know how tempted you'll be."
The words were spoken lightly, then his tone turned serious as he met those golden eyes. "You are the one I love most, Magnus. I don't care about our families or what anyone thinks. I love you with all my heart."
Humming quietly as Magnus played with his hair, he gave her a soft smile. "I think you already did but you can do it again."
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Sighing dramatically, she opened her eyes to smile at him. "It will be hard. Resisting the temptation will be quite a feat." Leaning closer, she nuzzled their noses together. "You own my heart, Alec..." Smoothing her hands up to cup his face, she took a soft breath.
Tilting her head, she let there lips touch smiling against his. Only then did she kiss him again, this time full and lingering as she memorized the feel of his lips against her own. The sensation sent a thrill down her spine and she felt warmth explode in her chest. It felt like the world just clicked together in that moment...
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Smiling at both the sigh and at having Magnus so close, he slid his fingers through her hair. "And you have mine, Magnus. You have since we first met."
Alec might not have understood it then, but his heart had belonged to her completely that day. Even before friendship had turned to deeper feelings, he would have done almost anything just to make her smile.
Making a quiet sound as she kissed him again, Alec's hand curled lightly around the back of Magnus' neck. Perfect... it was the only way he could think of describing it. The warmth of her lips, having her in his arms, was perfect.
When Alec eventually pulled away, his hand slipped from her neck to cup her cheek. "Tomorrow, I'll ask Charlotte. Make it official. I don't think she'll say no." At least he hoped she wouldn't. Charlotte had always seemed to like him and hadn't minded that they were always spending time together.
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Breathing in slowly, she met his eyes and felt her face heat up. "Magna... you... you can call me that. No one else... okay?" She'd spent years forcing everyone to stop. Only Will dared now.. and it got him a lot of pain for his troubles.
And if Alec kept kissing her like that... she had a feeling she'd be floating through life. Smiling as his hand slipped to her cheek, her eyes closed slowly. "I don't think she will either." Charlotte liked Alec a lot. It wouldn't take much for her to adopt him as well into their odd little family.
Turning her head, she kissed his palm before nuzzling her face into his neck. "I didn't realize how tired I was until now..." One hand stayed about his neck, her thumb gently slipping up and down his pulse. "I love you... but I think we'd be more comfortable sleeping somewhere else... do you agree?"
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Resting his forehead against hers, he didn't realize how worried he'd been until Magnus reassured him that she thought Charlotte wouldn't disapprove. "This might mean she'll try to get you into those dresses you hate so much so you'll be a proper lady being courted."
Not that the dresses matter to him. Magnus was beautiful to him whether she wore the kind of dresses Jessamine favored or trousers. But he couldn't help teasing her a bit, at least until he noticed how tired she was.
"I love you too." His eyes drifted half closed as her thumb brushed against his neck and he had to remind himself that she was right and that they'd both be sore in the morning if they didn't move. Shifting her in his arms, Alec stood, smiling softly at having her so close and knowing that she wanted to be with him as he carried her to the bedroom.
Setting her down on the bed, he couldn't stop himself from blushing even if Magnus has stayed with him before. "Do you want one of my shirts to sleep in?"
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"You're right... now I'm slightly horrified of the dresses she will try to give me." Blinking a few times, she made a slight face. "She'll tell me that I should do it for you." And part of her considered trying it a little more often if only for his reputation. It wouldn't do to have a fiance or even a wife that dressed like a boy all the time.
Curling her arms about his neck as he stood, she smiled at how easy he moved with her in his arms. Tipping her head up, she brushed a kiss to his neck. Feeling this close to Alec and being able to show her emotions... there was nothing like it in the world. Nothing at all.
Humming a happy sound when he sat her on the bed, she brushed her hair back and nodded. "If you don't mind." It wasn't just because his clothes covered more.. she loved his scent as well. "You are okay with us being here?"
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Even if it was what society would think of as proper, he didn't mind that she preferred the masculine version of her name or that she'd rather dress like a boy than wear ladies' fashions. "You don't have to wear them for me. I fell in love with the girl who wore trousers, not some society miss."
Not someone like Jessamine... he couldn't imagine dealing with someone like that. Or even Isabelle. Every time she spoke of things like that, he was completely lost. At least his sister only asked if she looked pretty and didn't want any other opinion about her clothing. "You're beautiful whether you're wearing gear or those dresses Charlotte tries to shove you into."
The kiss caused him to pause for a moment, wishing he could ask her to do that again, but knowing it wouldn't be proper. Not when she was spending the night and he didn't want her to get the wrong idea about what he wanted from her.
Trying to ignore his blush, he started searching for a shirt, finding one of his old ones that would cover her and be soft against her skin. "I don't mind. I - I know we probably shouldn't, but I love having you here with me and you know I won't do anything..."
And if he did try something and she didn't want him to, she could knock him flat. Offering her the shirt, he smiled nervously. "I'll leave so you can change."
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And even if she knew she should let her lips linger on his pulse... the likelihood of them kissing over his neck again later were high. After spending years repressing her feelings for Alec... The drive to touch him now grew.
When he pulled away, she carefully pulled off the weapons and belts she'd brought along. All of them were small things. Things easy to hide and didn't weigh her down. She relied on natural speed to get her through tougher situations. Slowly rising to her feet, she pushed the boots away that she'd just shed.
Lifting her head, she reached out to gently take the shirt only to smile at him in return. Brushing their fingers gently, she moved closer and tugged him down to kiss him soft and sweet. "Alec... I can dress out there... you still need to change as well and all your things are in here, right?"
She didn't like throwing things off for him. Not at all. But she also loved how he always thought of her first. Hugging the shirt to her chest, she ended up grinning to herself feeling every bit of girlish that she was.
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It wouldn't be comfortable but if he could sleep in his gear, he could sleep in almost anything.
Seeing how happy she was, he couldn't resist giving her another kiss, his hand finding Magnus' so that he could thread his fingers between hers. "Whatever you'll be most comfortable with, Magna. I don't want you to think... You know I wouldn't..."
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Returning his kiss, she squeezed the hand that took her own. Humming a happy sound, she pulled him closer just a little before leaning into his chest. Dragging their joined hands to her lips, she kissed his knuckles softly. "I really wouldn't mind if I faced one direction and you faced the other to change. I'd respect you... and I know you'd respect me."
Kissing the back of his hand this time, she nuzzled against his skin. "You are my happiness... and comfort."
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Which made it seem like a bad idea to go with her suggestion, but as he held her close and she kissed his hand, he couldn't say no. Magnus was right. He would respect her. He wouldn't peek or take advantage. And when they were in private they had done things that others would think were just as scandalous. The fact that they were alone together in his apartment, in his bedroom would be enough to ruin their reputations.
"If that's what you wish, then we'll promise not to look and that will be enough." Kissing her forehead, Alec smiled as she nuzzled his hand. "I promise to always try to be those things for you." He wished he could do more. Ease the pain that had been caused by her past, but he would offer her a future with the happiness she deserved.
Reluctantly pulling his hand away, he let his fingers linger against hers before moving from the bed to find the clothes that he normally wore when she spent the night. An old shirt and a pair of pants that had been mended too many times to be of any use except for roughhousing with his parabatai or pretending to train Max.
Keeping his back turned, he changed quickly, telling himself that there was no reason to be embarrassed. They had done things like this before... but that had been before. It felt like everything had changed with a few precious words. Tugging, at the shirt hem, Alec stared at the wall, waiting for Magnus to say it was all right for him to turn around.
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"I'd rather not be that far away from you right now." Where it would be inevitable come morning.. right now she didn't have to. Tipping her head up to the kiss, she smiled lovingly. "Alec... you're everything to me. That won't change."
She lingered only a second watching him retrieve his clothing before slowly turning. Moving slowly, she closed her eyes as she changed. It might be wrong, but she focused on the sounds of his movements behind her. She'd never disrespect him... even if her mind unkindly supplied mental images.
When the shirt slid on, she hugged herself and took a deep breath. Shifting back without turning, she lowered down to sit on the bed lightly. "Okay... I'm dressed." She didn't wear much else but the shirt and the under clothes beneath.
Coiling her legs up and under her, she tipped her head to listen for him.
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"If you want me to stay close, then I will." He couldn't resist stealing another kiss before letting her change.
When she said that he could turn around, he smiled when he saw her curled up on his bed. She'd done it before but this time seemed special. Now they knew how they felt about each other. Padding as silently as he could over to the bed, he leaned down to kiss beneath her ear. "So am I."
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Turning to look at him, she smiled brightly as her arms rose to wind about his neck. Tugging him down gently, she slid closer and pressed into his chest while letting a hand slip down his hand. Pulling it about her waist, she gasped just a little as she pressed his hand to the small of her back.
Her other hand softly tangled into his hair before she tipped her head up to kiss under his chin. "I really do want you close in every way..."
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His face warmed as she placed his hand on her back, trying to ignore that gasp. Meeting her eyes, he smiled gently while he began to lightly run his fingers along her spine.
Shivering at that kiss, Alec told himself that she couldn't mean more than just this. Magnus had misspoken and hadn't meant to imply anything else. "I want to be close to you... Whatever you'll allow me."
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The redeeming grace only came from the thought that she'd marry him right now if she could. "There is so little I would stop you from... but we should both show a little self restraint. Just... a little." Not too much. She wanted his hands on her so badly she shivered in delight.
Moving up, she kissed him again, slow and sweet before testing out nibbling on his lower lip. Not stopping there, she kissed the corner of his mouth and slowly nipped and kissed her way down his neck then back up to just behind his ear. "Tell me to stop... if you don't want me to do this..."
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It seemed almost unreal that after wishing to be with Magnus for so long he could actually be this close to her without worrying that she would disapprove or tell him that she didn't feel the same way. His hand moved lightly along her back to gently cup her neck, rubbing her scalp lightly as he returned those kisses.
"We'll be careful not to go too far." Even if he wished to. Some of that pent up longing could be felt as he kissed her and the noises he made when she found that sensitive spot on his neck. He would have been embarrassed but this was something he'd wanted too long to let pride ruin it for him. "I want you to. I've wanted you to for years."
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Gently pushing him onto his back, she slid onto him to perch straddling his hips. A slight flush slid over her cheeks, but she ignored it in favor of ducking down to kiss at that spot again that made him make such lovely sounds. Pushing one hand carefully under his shirt, she splayed it over soft warm skin and made a soft sound. That only grew louder when he rubbed her scalp. Tipping her head into the touch she felt like she could almost purr for how wonderful his touch felt.
"We will... I want to save myself for the wedding night. But this... this is perfect." Whispering the words against his neck, she licked softly at the shell of his ear experimentally. Oddly... she even loved how he tasted on her tongue. Which brought a smile to her face as she carefully smoothed her fingers over his stomach. "I love you, Alexander Lightwood..."
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Laughing quietly as he was maneuvered onto his back, the sound turned to almost a stutter as Magnus moved to sit on his hips. His face warmed as he realized how intimately close they were even with cloth between them. Alec began to speak when she found that spot again and her hand slid beneath his shirt.
Words and thought disappeared as Magnus touched him, his hand slipping free of her hair to move along her side. Shivering at the attention to his ear, his fingers settled on her waist, lightly tracing patterns on her hip until he realized the fabric of her shirt was riding up.
His blush brightened as his hand stilled. "I - we can wait... I didn't mean to..." But he'd liked it... or at least the idea of being able to touch bare skin someday. "I love you, Magna."
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Splaying her hand over his stomach, she slowly traced the lines of muscles and even marks that she found on soft skin. When she found scars, she closed her eyes and tried to pick through her memory to see if she'd been there when they happened. Her breath shook a little as he slid his hand down her side. At least it interrupted the parade of injuries that he'd been dealt over time...
Reopening her eyes, she turned her head to look at the h and n her hip. A small hint of a smile pulled at her lips before she put her hand over his. Gently pushing it down, she lifted her eyes to his.
"It's okay, Alec... I want you to touch me." Once his hands pressed to her bare thigh, she pulled his hand back up, letting his fingers disappear under the hem of the shirt. The feeling of his hand on her was amazing, it sent thrills of happiness up and down her spine. "Alec..."
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