With those words, Alec's blush returned. He'd thought about Magnus before, wanting to be close to her, but he hadn't seriously considered she might have similar thoughts about him. "I wouldn't mind the discomfort." Pausing, he couldn't help looking hopeful even if he knew that he should be a gentleman with her. "You really... with me?"
Which made it seem like a bad idea to go with her suggestion, but as he held her close and she kissed his hand, he couldn't say no. Magnus was right. He would respect her. He wouldn't peek or take advantage. And when they were in private they had done things that others would think were just as scandalous. The fact that they were alone together in his apartment, in his bedroom would be enough to ruin their reputations.
"If that's what you wish, then we'll promise not to look and that will be enough." Kissing her forehead, Alec smiled as she nuzzled his hand. "I promise to always try to be those things for you." He wished he could do more. Ease the pain that had been caused by her past, but he would offer her a future with the happiness she deserved.
Reluctantly pulling his hand away, he let his fingers linger against hers before moving from the bed to find the clothes that he normally wore when she spent the night. An old shirt and a pair of pants that had been mended too many times to be of any use except for roughhousing with his parabatai or pretending to train Max.
Keeping his back turned, he changed quickly, telling himself that there was no reason to be embarrassed. They had done things like this before... but that had been before. It felt like everything had changed with a few precious words. Tugging, at the shirt hem, Alec stared at the wall, waiting for Magnus to say it was all right for him to turn around.
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Which made it seem like a bad idea to go with her suggestion, but as he held her close and she kissed his hand, he couldn't say no. Magnus was right. He would respect her. He wouldn't peek or take advantage. And when they were in private they had done things that others would think were just as scandalous. The fact that they were alone together in his apartment, in his bedroom would be enough to ruin their reputations.
"If that's what you wish, then we'll promise not to look and that will be enough." Kissing her forehead, Alec smiled as she nuzzled his hand. "I promise to always try to be those things for you." He wished he could do more. Ease the pain that had been caused by her past, but he would offer her a future with the happiness she deserved.
Reluctantly pulling his hand away, he let his fingers linger against hers before moving from the bed to find the clothes that he normally wore when she spent the night. An old shirt and a pair of pants that had been mended too many times to be of any use except for roughhousing with his parabatai or pretending to train Max.
Keeping his back turned, he changed quickly, telling himself that there was no reason to be embarrassed. They had done things like this before... but that had been before. It felt like everything had changed with a few precious words. Tugging, at the shirt hem, Alec stared at the wall, waiting for Magnus to say it was all right for him to turn around.